A Day to be Remembered......

Today was one for the books. It will be a day I will always remember. No nothing bad or tragic happened, my daughter actually controlled her outbursts rather well. Today I bought my first......gulp.....one piece. Ok now I do realize way worst stuff could have happened to me them this and the fact that I'm even blogging about it is ridiculous. But everyone writes what bothers them, or their opinions, or whatever so today for me this was a big step, in the wrong direction.

The summer after Ellasyn was born I actually wore a two piece. Granted it was at the privacy of my parents pool where no one would judge me openly, at least not to my face. I felt more confident then, than I do now a year later. I guess because I could honestly say, "I just had a baby." That excuse expired about 4 months ago. Now I'm left with, "I just ate a footlong and had a beer." Not as good as the first one but at least I'm openly admitting it. Ever since I stopped breast feeding the weight packed on before I realized my muffin top was more offensive than normal. The extra 500 calories I was burning suddenly was gone but I continued to eat on a 2500 calorie a day diet. See for all you non-moms or mothers who did not breastfeed, breast feeding helps you drop weight FAST and keep it off. But when you stop you best be careful and cut back on eating. No one told me that except the scale.

I know, I know be happy with yourself and that's all that matters. Thanks, but no thanks. I want to be happily tucked into a size 4. When that happens come back to me and I can guarantee being happy with myself will be a lot easier. Self confidence is key. Now while I may be confident in my new suit I'm not confident flaunting it for the world to see. For example, you don't see me taking pictures of myself in the bathroom mirror in my new onesie, like you do girls in two pieces. Because its not accepted, no one wants to see cottage cheese on Instagram. No matter how much editing you do to it. What also shouldn't be accepted is pictures taken in bathroom mirrors in the first place. Especially when the bathroom your doing it in looks like shit! Pet peeve número UNO. Please, PLEASE when posting a picture of yourself look at it first. If your toilet seat is up and your sink is covered with toothpaste and your generic bottle of hairspray is showing, straighten up the damn place and try again. When Miley Cyrus posted the picture of her new God awful blonde pixie everyone was starring at the train wreck behind her, not her. Same goes when you post a picture of what you think people want to see. It's even worse if your a guy doing it so everyone stop. I mean what do you honestly expect people to say. And you think I'm self conscious or shallow because I bought a one piece but the women who post pictures to get a thumbs up's are not?!

Ok, back to what matters, my one piece. It's cobalt blue, strapless, and has those ruffle looking things that make your fat rolls not so noticeable. It's actually cute but you will never know that because I will never post a picture of a beached whale. They usually don't like their pictures being taken anyways. Maybe I will take my friend up on her idea of "Skypercising". Yes, exercising over Skype, brilliant huh:) I don't even eat that unhealthy but I'm a grazer. I eat out of boredom. So now I'm considering Weight Watchers. It worked for Jenny Mcarthy and well anyone who poses for Playboy at 40 goes to the top of my, "I wanna be like her," list. Plus, she's crazy fit! So we will see how it goes, in the less then 3 months, I have before the Southern Summer arrives in full force guns a blazin.

Today I am a wife, mother, and now own a onesie.


Keep Chasing Those Fireflies.

CJ